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break a bottle

and cut me up.

Xtrue until deathX
11 April
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·Hello my name is Distance, and I really don't care if I ever wake up again.

·This is a 44. Caliber love letter straight from my heart.

· "I will be here tommorow and I will be here next year. Just like this X on the back of my hand, I'm not going nowhere."

· And im tired, your crazy
or maybe im wrong and your just amazing.
and ill follow your footsteps
maybe ill go somewhere new.
maybe ill go somewhere with you.

· You wouldnt even smile if I were screaming as the water filled my lungs.

· You know I don't like sports
So why are you playing these games with my head
You act like I'm not hurt
So explain to me why I'm sitting on the bench

· I have really grown to hate you,
and everything you've come to stand for.
I write these words in vain,
You won't read them.
This pen would go to better use
if I shoved it into your throat.

· And I get so close, but I runaway, I runaway.
The things I fear the most, keep me here to stay, but anyway...

· Collect calls to home
to tell them that I realize
that everyone who lives will someday die
and die alone.

· It's hard to look in the mirror these days
when everyone has everything you'd rather be.

·My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me,
so won't you kill me?
So I die happy.

· All I know now is regret,
it follows like a silhouette along the cobbelstone behind us,
but has nothing to say except to innocently ask,
its voice delicate as glass,
"Do you see me when we pass?"
but I continue on my way.

· Everything I know about breaking hearts
I learned form you, its true
I've never done it with the style and grace you have
But 've made long term plans
Based on these mistakes

· Never Again.
I'll slit my throat with the knife I pulled out of my spine.
Maybe when you find out that I'm dead,
you'll realize what you did to me.

· You should have pulled the trigger while the gun was in my face...
...but you waited 'til my back was turned...

·From the moment you left I knew that something wasn't right.
But the feeling inside has kept me up all night.
You and me are like one heart-beat.

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I'm a person just like you but I've got better things to do than sit around and fuck my head hang out with the living dead snort white shit up my nose pass out at the shows I don't even think about speed that's something I just don't need I've got the straight edge I'm a person just like you but I've got better things to do than sit around and smoke dope 'cause I know I can cope laugh at the thought of eating ludes laugh at the thought of sniffing glue always gonna keep in touch never want to use a crutch I've got the straight edge.

Smoke another joint. Drink another beer. Let's get one thing straight. You keep it fucking clear. Fuck your brain. Take another hit. I pray to God you OD on that shit. Shoot that fucking needle into your veins. Your braindead body is all that remains. I fucking choose to keep my mind clear. Your drugs and alcohol don't belong here. You don't know who you're fucking with! You're messing with the wrong crew! Blow that smoke in my face, and God knows what I'll do. Your fucking lifestyle makes me sick. Straighten out your act, and fucking quick. I can't understand why you do that shit, cuz me and my crew won't stand for it!

I remember all those bands. Preaching with X's on their hands. The Youth Of Yesterday what else can I say? The times have changed and now they've faded away.
The times have changed and the trends move on. The spirit of youth I still carry on. Closed minded attitudes, you know the youth crew. Alienating everyone who didn't think like , didn't act like, didn't look like you.
Here today, gone tomorrow. Memories of yesterday leave me in sorrow. Here today gone tomorrow. Sincerity? It was only borrowed.
Hey, but where are they now? Cuz I'm still here. And I'm still drug free and quite sincere. Hey but that's ok, cuz they're out of the scene. They're denying hardcore, while they chase the green.

Someday you will look back in fear on all the times that you spent here and at that moment you'll wish you hadn't spent all your book money on beer. Your friends are high, your grades are low, couldn't shake a stick at what you know, but when it comes to blood alcohol you get a 4.0. Your eyes are red, your lungs are black. YOU GOT THE COLL-EDGE! Stabbed us all right in the back. YOU LOST THE EDGE! Left the crew, joined a frat. How could you sell out like that? I'll never know... Try to fit in with everyone, if you don't drink in the dorm then you're no fun. You swore TRUE TILL DEATH, but you're still young, not even true till 21. When you went to school I learned for sure, if you aren't now you never were and if you have a single conviction you don't know what it's for! To see the bands you never go. You don't support the scene you used to know. Well here's a hint in case you're slow. Lollapalooza is not a show. You lost the edge and that's not the worst. The sad thing is you're not the first. Our friendship's done, it really hurts. But maybe I could have all of your old shirts. Your Wide Awake record and Chung King too. They can't be worth that much to you. Maybe this is not so bad, because now I own all the things you had. When friends of mine start to drink, I can use a new X-Swatch I think...You swore you'd be Edge till eternity! Now you're pledging a fraternity.

Deliberately put your head in a mindless state. Gay without the bottle, you can't relate. Intoxicated you do stupid things. Things you don't mean, things you wish could be changed. You can drink it down, say it's for the best. Bottle in the mouth, just like all the rest. Still you do it when you know it's wrong. But it's what's accepted so you feel strong. Tell me is it really worth it? Fuck it, to turn your brain to shit. My advice, why don't you stop and think. Please man, it's OK NOT TO DRINK. If drinking's what it takes to be accepted. I'd rather stay sober and be rejected. I know what it takes to keep my head on straight. Pouring shit down my throat is not the way. I don't need the bottles, I don't need the cans. Putting shit in my body doesn't make me a man. You can laugh but you'll get yours. You can stay drunk and I'll stay sober. Finally you understand. Drinking doesn't make you a man. Not me, I know what's smart. Sober, I'll always be alert. Hey man, do you feel better? Does it make you feel good when you drink? I know you laugh, and today you're happy. But it's not as funny as you think. You can do it now and still enjoy it because the people that care are all still here. But one day when you're laughing you'll turn around and I'll be standing there. I'm telling you man for what it's worth, you better listen up before someone gets hurt. As the grain goes in, you start to change. Sober all my life, I've always been the same. It's time you see straight and let your friends get through. Faith and trust in friends is what's best for you. I've never had to lie to any of my friends. Just put things on the line until the very end!

'Tears For Meaghan', the caption read. Another life wasted, another partyer dead. Three hundred mourners come to "pay respects"--You only came to ease the guilt on your heads. Tears for Meaghan--give me a break; Half of you there are a bunch of fakes. Tears for Meaghan--you should pay; When you gave her the forty-ounce, what'd you say? I want no part of your booze. Get drunk--what for? You'll only lose. When you look into the coffin what do you see? Is that the place you'd like to be? How many kids there will think and stop? At next week's party she's already forgot.

“Those drugs are gonna kill you if I don’t get to you first
Make the wrong choice and I’m gonna judge you
I hope that fucked up head can tell you what to do.”
- JUDGE, You’ve Lost My Respect